I Could Never Tell You...

AUTHOR'S NOTE: Read "Deep Dark Secrets" first...and then read this reply from the character who was originally being written to, back to the character originally doing the writing. Can you tell who they are?

The "Free To Write" at the bottom was the name of the forum I got the prompt from. Taken from my old online journal.

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I Could Never Tell You...
12/16/02
12:45 pm EST

GGRRRRR!! Remember the site where I got the "letter" journal prompt from, long ago, the one that I wrote from one of my characters' POV...I hope I got that apostrophe right, I suddenly can't tell. The dumb site is now GONE and it says it'll be back at some other URL, but of course, it pulls a forbidden message. I bet it will never be back. I got to do all of ONE prompt from that site. Most of the other prompt links at Diarist.net are dead. I wish somebody would weed them out.

Couldn't even get a cached version at the Wayback Machine. Dumb bots.

So I'll use a prompt from a forum around HERE. I hate how transient the Net can be.

As before, this is from the POV of one of my characters...in fact, it's the character my LAST character was writing to. Confused yet? You should be, since I'm the only one doing this.

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I could never tell you I love you, as a lover, because you and I would both know it's not true. I know you don't want me to lie even if it would make you feel better. You know I'm an awful liar, anyway.

I don't know what I ever did to deserve the way you told me you feel about me. I don't mean that in an offensive way; you need more faith in yourself than that. You might not believe it, but in some ways I've always believed you're much stronger than me. Already I can hear you laughing, but it's true. You've put up with things I could never dream of. You know that's true also.

I know that there is someone out there for you, or more likely, that you are here for someone who will someday find you. They can't help but find you. You just have to be open enough to see them coming, and to say hello when they arrive. Which they will. I know you can be patient. You waited years for me. Just take that patience and wait for the right person now, because you deserve to be the one that people come to, not the one who seeks out others.

I may not be able to tell you I love you, but I can tell you I will always be here for you. But I know already that you do believe me when I say that, so I won't try to convince you. I just need to convince you to do so.

My ear and heart are always open for you, E.

D.


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